It is a good start to another week. Christmas is no officially on it's way with all the snow and Dec 1 tomorrow. The week is off to a good start. I had my work out tonight and it was fantastic! Kendra really kicked my ass! Kids are happy and asleep all is well. Just need husband home to make it even better,soon he will be.
I wasn't sure how my idea of the boudoir photos would settle in my thoughts. But I told people today, and yes, I AM pretty excited. I wrote my list last night of all I want to do to prep - like gel nails, some tanning, maybe some waxing. I definitely want an absolutely amazing piece of lingerie. I want it to be out of this world. Maybe I will wait for Boxing day sales to find a wicked piece. I am really excited, I am almost giddy! I like having a real goal and not a 'weight loss' goal. That seems like such a general goal. I almost say it and think it for a week or two and then lose interest. I believe these photos are a more tangible goal for me. I can almost picture myself posing, make up, hair, lights flashing. It really makes all the working out and nutrition seem like the steps to climb up to my goal. You don't actually focus on each stair like it is a struggle or a challenge. The focus is at the top of the stairs. and when you get there, you don't just stop, you carry on to the next flight. Hmmm, I like it. I love it. I think I climbed my first step by putting my plan into motion.
Goal this week: Cardio 3X and 2 weight classes,
Goal tomorrow: TRX class in evening
Time for sleep, my body is aching from my workout.
Monday, November 30, 2009
Saturday, November 28, 2009
I'm Back
I gave up writing because I got weirded out how people felt connected to me by reading my blog. But that is what a Blog is all about. It wasn't really everyone, it was only one person and now that person is a blip in the memory. It wasn't anything major that happened, it just made me think being more reclusive is better. That kinda sucks for a social girl like myself. I have been away a long time, and I really threw myself into being busy. Somehow, I forgot about all the people close to me and how much I loved doing other things other than work. Don't get me wrong, I love work and everyone there. but today I saw a friend who had a baby 7 weeks ago and I hadn't even bought a gift or saw the baby. I felt really stupid mumbling that I let time get away from me. But that is the truth, I did think about her and the baby, but would tell myself that I am too busy and will do it next week. Now I fill crappy for not doing it in the first place.
Today opened my thoughts to alot of things, I have put my own goals on hold for, well pretty much forever. I love doing things for other people, I love helping people, it makes me feel so good. So why do I feel so crappy when I eat crappy food, skip exercise, not sleep, be stressed, etc - I do it to myself. Why don't I care about ME? I met a photographer that does boudoir photography and I REALLY want to have my picture taken. I love looking at the women in Playboy, the pictures are tasteful and so empowering and sexy. I want a super hot picture of ME! I want to do it, more than I have wanted anything.
February is my goal, 3 months. I am going to talk to the trainers on Monday. I want a specific program, I need a hard line with me, I want focus and determination. I have to eat right. That is so hard for me, I fall off the food wagon all the time. I start out great and then I dump off or rather jump off. I had a Whopper tonight. It is like I pushed the voice telling me "don't do it, you will regret it, you will feel like shit afterwards" right out of my head. Complete denial. And YES I do feel like shit!
I am going to keep writing in this blog, whether it is read or not. Point is: I like it and it makes me accountable. I am going to set daily, weekly, monthly goals every time. Whoa, I sound like I mean it... and I think I do this time.
Goal tomorrow: put away laundry, make healthy dinner, grocery shop, pick up good book from library.
Goal for the week: 2 training sessions and attempt some cardio during the week, increase water intake, make meals and carb load in the morning.
Goal for December: 2X week training, 2X week cardio, drop calories to 1500/day, organize my schedule to reflect workouts, food log, DROP 8lbs by Dec 31.
Wish me success!
Today opened my thoughts to alot of things, I have put my own goals on hold for, well pretty much forever. I love doing things for other people, I love helping people, it makes me feel so good. So why do I feel so crappy when I eat crappy food, skip exercise, not sleep, be stressed, etc - I do it to myself. Why don't I care about ME? I met a photographer that does boudoir photography and I REALLY want to have my picture taken. I love looking at the women in Playboy, the pictures are tasteful and so empowering and sexy. I want a super hot picture of ME! I want to do it, more than I have wanted anything.
February is my goal, 3 months. I am going to talk to the trainers on Monday. I want a specific program, I need a hard line with me, I want focus and determination. I have to eat right. That is so hard for me, I fall off the food wagon all the time. I start out great and then I dump off or rather jump off. I had a Whopper tonight. It is like I pushed the voice telling me "don't do it, you will regret it, you will feel like shit afterwards" right out of my head. Complete denial. And YES I do feel like shit!
I am going to keep writing in this blog, whether it is read or not. Point is: I like it and it makes me accountable. I am going to set daily, weekly, monthly goals every time. Whoa, I sound like I mean it... and I think I do this time.
Goal tomorrow: put away laundry, make healthy dinner, grocery shop, pick up good book from library.
Goal for the week: 2 training sessions and attempt some cardio during the week, increase water intake, make meals and carb load in the morning.
Goal for December: 2X week training, 2X week cardio, drop calories to 1500/day, organize my schedule to reflect workouts, food log, DROP 8lbs by Dec 31.
Wish me success!
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